went crazy. what's next?

the past four months have been absolute chaos.

• started going to school for post grad work
  
• moved to an extremely rural, southern town
  
• found my roommate back in asheville dead in his room while tripping on absinthe
• a really good friend, who helped me clean up the above statement, died in a freak bike accident about 3 weeks later
  
• my best friend/ partner/ boyfriend/ not-boyfriend is ignoring me because i'm crazy
  
• one of my few female friends moved far away
• i failed a test for the first time in my life
  
• my family thinks i'm a "tattooed whore"
• i'm skinnier than i ever have been
• my mother had a hysterectomy
  
• my hair is falling out
  

dump some more shit on me. i'm starting to like it; that is, in between the chocolate and tears.

i don't even like chocolate.